Well, this morning, Fareez was looking at me. When I look at him, he smiled. The hey-can-I-know-you-more smile. And i replied with a hey-whats-up smile. Haha. Then I look in front. I pick up calls, talk to the customer, each time I put customer on hold, I'll think of him. No, it's not Fareez. You know who. Grh, faka. Stop appearing in my head, will you boy? Damn damn damn.
I went to the fax machine, I found nothing there. My face was sad because my head is tired. And suddenly there's a guy looking at me and ask why, then he continued saying '' Don't be sad. You look cute when you're smiling. So smile " since I'm famous with the happy go lucky attitude in my office. Then I look to him and smile. I was faking it up. Then he said " There you go, cute. Lucky your boyfriend ". Blarrghhh, I feel like screaming my lungs out. I don't have boyfriend! Ergh. Then I look at him and said " Yeah, but poor me. I'm single ". Then he did the shocked face. And I left. I went to Haniff. Fareez was there too. He look at me. But I was looking at Haniff. I was about to tell Haniff that tonight I'm going back with Megan since his shift is different than mine. Then suddenly there's a guy whispering while I was walking. " Hey, awak ni cute la ". But I didn't bother to look at the guy. I walked to Haniff. And Fareez, as usual, do his work while looking at me. Haih, Fareez², kau comel kau tau? Bile nak mintak number aku? Haha!
You know what I like about this Fareez guy? He's a shy guy. Die selalu pandang aku sorok². And when I noticed it, I look at him, and cepat² dia tarik muka. Haha. Comel. Nice, but sigh, too bad. I'm not ready yet to have anyone in my life. Not this soon. Probably, after 1 - 2 years, I'll find someone. I'm not that desperate anyway, honey.
I'm writing this with his sweater on my body. I hope he's still wearing mine, since we switched off before we broke up. Okay, enough about him. My head is heavy. I can't really think ahead now. And just now, he called, the savy guy, asking me whether I'm free or not tomorrow. And I ask why. And he said he wants to meet me since he kept on saying he's looking forward to meet me. I told him I'll think about it first. But you know, 99.9% I wont go. I'm tired. I just feel like staying home :)
Just now when I was in my lunch break, I sat in pantry, watching tv. " .. I know this movie. " I talked to myself. 20sec after that, I realized. This movie I've watched with him on my birthday last 2 years. Knocked up! Yes, I remember this movie. He loves this movie. Haha. Well, it doesn't matter now.
My back hurts, my stomach hurts. Fak. Suddenly my stomach feels like there's something cut my tummy into pieces with knife. Sumpah sakit. Damn. Ape nak jadi ni ha? Shit. I better go rest now. And see him in my dreams. Lol. Not funny.
Night.
- Nobody.
I need to throw this stress mode that he caused me for. I haven't check his blog and everything. I prefers not to know anything. I'm afraid if I do, I will know how happy he is with the girl. I can't bare the pain. So I prefer not to know anything. I'd give what he wants, a freedom. And he ask me not to find him, I did that too. I just don't want him to hate me. That's why I obeyed to what he said. But still, he hates me tho. Lol. Hey, at least, one msg/call. It's not wrong after all.
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