He won, I lost,

I'm wrong. I thought there will be a chance for him to find me back someday, but then I heard he's planning to go to his new gf's house. Wow, I'm surprised. Seriously I'm hurt. I thought at least, he will come home and think of me. And maybe, he will come to my house and meet me. Sigh, sigh. PATHETIC!!! See, people, stop telling me about him! I don't want to know. It hurts to know that he's actually happy with that girl! :"((





Fucker, I'm stupid. What for I'm still hoping for something which is NOT going to happen? OPEN YOUR EYES GIRL! He's not going to find you! He's happy with someone else, NOT YOU! NOT YOU! SOMEONE ELSE!! Geez, I wonder what perfume is she wearing. I hope her perfume is less aroma than mine. Heh.





Talk about perfume, I need to buy a new perfume. My perfume is almost finish now. Sobs :'( Everything is not good for me now. Yes, aku di bawah skang, tapi soon, aku akan di atas jugak. What goes up, must come down. It's okay. I will, someday, I will, stand on my own feet, smiling and be happy. Insyallah.





I'm hurt now. He's totally FINE without me. Stop DAYDREAMING la, babe! You should FORGET HIM now! FORGET! Not REMEMBERING him! F O R G E T!!!!! He's a liar. All his words to me was a LIE. He didn't mean all the words that he told me when we're still together. It's all bullshit. I'm totally pissed off right now. I'm hurt. :'( But still, I can't hate him. W H Y??! I'm trying to hate him by saying he's a liar and everything but I can't seem to force my heart to do so. Faka!




No, I'm not mad at him. No. He have the rights to do anything he wants with that girl. Seriously I'm not angry with him. I'm angry with myself. For still believing, hoping that everything is not too late yet. It is too late. He don't need me anymore. Why I can't face it? Girl, be strong. Face the truth :( I know its hurt, girl. But please, face the truth. He don't want you anymore. He's happy with that girl.






Gosh, I didn't know it would be this hard. I must force myself to be strong and stop hoping whatever happens pun. He don't need me anymore. He's happy with that girl. I'm suffering here, alone. Its okay. Not my time yet, just not my time yet.






- Nobody.
I'm totally wrong. There will be no more US anymore. I thought at least he would think of me, but then I was wrong, again. He's happy now. Really really happy with that girl. .