Its time to say GOODBYE.

Goodbye you guys.
Thanks for stopping by before this ;')
For new people, please read from the first entry,
Which you can see on your left,
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Its below " Read those ".
Click on the " If you love someone, set them free . . "
That's the 1st entry.
And continue reading it until finish.
Then you'll know how hurt I am,
How stupid I am,
How pathetic I am,
How much I've missed him,
And how much I loved him.





Bye guys.
I'll disappear from this cruel world and I will learn from my mistakes,
So that the same thing wont happen again.
But one thing for sure, I wont let myself fall to someone.
Yeah, maybe for 1/2 years, after that then I will look for someone else.






And " With you by Chris Brown " is just a lie from him, to me.
He said that song is for me, well I don't see any true words coming from that song.






Darling, thank you for watching as I fall.
I'll be missing you, for sure.
But I know there will be no more " US " anymore.
There will be " you and her ".
And " me and myself ".








Take care.
Love you so much, for the last time.








I know you wont miss or find me.

- Nobody.
Last entry. Goodbye peeps.

Y o u,

You. .
You don't know how I miss you everyday.
You don't know how much tears that I shed for you since you left.
You don't know how weak I am without you by my side.
You don't know how jealous I am, seeing couples walking around holding hands.





Those days, where you hold my hands tight, walking together everywhere, you whispered in my ears that you love me. You asked me to look into your eyes cause you told me that eyes never lie. You hug me in the cinema when I feel cold, you hug me in your car when you wanna show how much you love me. You kiss my cheek when I'm feeling down, you kiss my cheek when you make me angry, you kiss my cheek .. when you feel like kissing me.





Yes, I admit, I was wrong for still hoping that you would come back. I was wrong for loving you with all my heart. I was wrong for trusting you, needing you, missing you and loving you. I was wrong. You broke my heart when you choose her instead of me, you broke my heart when you yelled and back her up instead of being on my side, you broke my heart when you said you don't love me, you broke my heart when you decided to leave . .





I'll move on if that's what you want. Even though deep inside I know I wont be able to meet someone else like you. But then, I hope I will find much better than you, boy. Because you already met someone else which you still don't know whether she's better or worst than me. I know I'm not a good gf last time, but at least, I never cheated on you. 4 years, I never ever think of leaving you for someone else. Never ever think of cheating on you, not once, not twice, never. But then, it was you who cheated on me, it was you darling. You. The one who I trusted the most.





You ..
You used to tell me how much you love me, everyday.
You used to tell me how you miss seeing my face.
You used to tell me how much you need me in your life.



But now, you don't even bother to tell me how much you love me.
You don't even care to miss me.
You don't even think of needing me in your life, anymore.





Who thought, a guy, once loved his girl so much, can suddenly changed when she came in his life?
Who thought, a guy, once cared about his girl, don't even bother now to feel her pain that he caused her for?
Who thought, a guy, once prayed to God that he wants this girl in his life forever, don't ever think of this girl anymore after what she have done and sacrificed for him?





Why people changed? Why? Oh boy, you don't know how broken my heart is. But still, I love you so much like you never did anything wrong to me. I still love you with all my heart, like before. But it's different now. I don't have the opportunity to tell you everyday that I love you, instead, I have to keep it alone, in my heart.





In the deepest part of my heart ..







Boy, I'll go, yes I'll go. After this you won't hear anything or know anything about me. I'll disappear, like you want me to do when you yelled asking me to leave you and her, happily ever after. Well, I will pray that for you. Yeah, " .. If you love someone, set them free ". I will set you free darling, because thats what you want, thats what you asked for, and thats because I love you.

Before I go, please click " HERE ".
I have something for you to watch.











Goodbye b :')
Happy anniversary, again ( for every 25th ), forever and ever.
Even we are falling apart now.








Take care. .

-Nobody
See how much I love you? I bet she don't love you, like I loved you. But it's too late now dear, cause you're blinded by her.

Last words.

For so many days, I shed silent tears
Of the hurt and pain I went through,
Not one day went by I didn’t love you.
I tried to fill the shoes of a role I couldn’t play
For so many days, I shed silent tears.

When you were in trouble or in need of help,
I was the one there for you when there was no one else.
You bruised and scarred,
My heart, I picked myself up,
And erased the hurt and pain and made a fresh start.
For so many days, I shed silent tears.

Through the days of your anger and rage,
I loved you more and that’s all I ever wanted to say.
Of all the time you pushed me away,
I wanted to hug you and tell you I understood,
And everything would be okay.
For so many days, I shed silent tears.

Now that we are grown and on our own,
I know not what your heart might say.
I forgive and I love you darling,
Until my dying day.
For so many days, I shed silent tears.
But no more,
My baby dear, shall I shed another tear.

I'll move on.

- Nobody.
I already set up my mind. I'll try my best, cause this is what he wanted me to do.

Short msg,

My fever get worst.
Shit.

-Nobody
I'm hanging all alone by myself.

Fever attack!

Geez, I'm not feeling well :( I had fever. Sobs. It's been a week :( My head is heavy, my eyes are hurt. Hurt Hurt! I feel sleepy and super tired. Seriously tired! Its already been 3days, people especially GUYS, kept on asking whats wrong with my eyes. When I asked why, they said my eyes looks bruised. Then I looked at the mirror, it looks fine to me. Lol. But then its not la kan since there's almost 10 people asking about my eyes!! :( Grrh.







I went to somewhere last Friday. Everything went OKAY. Super OKAY, I supposed. I had fun, SUPER FUN! :) Yayy! But then, I had fever and I broke my legs. :( I'm tired of working, lack of energy. Sobs. Anyways, what the heck, I don't care. What I know is, I'm enjoying myself.

Just now my CEO came and gave speech.
Its really make me realize of something that I should have been thinking before this.
And I love this word so much.
His words are very powerful and make me feel power and strong.









" Problems is like rain, it will always come.
But we have two option to choose,
Whether to get wet,
Or use the umbrella and get through it "











Well, It make me think of something,
Yes, the problem will keep on chasing us if we keep on running from it.
I did that before,
But now, I know that I have to face it, and get done with it.
So that after this, if it comes again, I will be able to face it without any problems.
I will face it now, and I will get done with it! :)

- Nobody

... Guess what?
I choose to use the umbrella and get through it.

Angry night.

I'm writing something,
And I have to save it as a DRAFT first,
Because my mood is currently ANGRY AND TIRED AND FCKING MOODY!








My cat is missing.
From noon.
Bloody hell la weh!
Why can't they just go and find her?
Why must wait until I get my fucking ass home and then baru nak carik?!













Fucker, I'm tired okay?
Bloody hell la!
I can't fcking close my eyes to sleep if I know one of my cat is missing!
Fak fak fak!
I'm tired la fucker and I want to fcking sleep!
Arghhhhhhh!











Where are you, sayang?:'(













* Sorry banyak mencarot.
Ahhhhh!

- Nobody
When I said sayang, it means my cat, not the guy.

Dear boy,

I'm watching Titanic today, the feelings of watching it alone, makes me feel sad. Jack, is Rose's true love. Which make me and Rose are same. I used to believe that you're my true love, boy. Well, I still believe that you're my true love. Even though you left me and go to other girl. That part, I'm different from Rose. What makes me and Rose are same, is because we both lost our true love. In a different ways, I mean. Sitting there alone watching this sad movie, makes me cry inside. I want to cry actually, but then I can't, cause I will feel weak if I cry. But to be frank, my eyes are watery. I watched Jack, being too concern towards Rose, makes me feel lonely. I really miss you, boy. I do. I honestly missing having you by my side. I miss you, I miss you so so much.





Sigh. Guess what? I'm crying. Haha. I know I'm stupid for crying, but then I can't hold my tears anymore. I can see the love in Jack's eyes for Rose, which I don't see anymore in your eyes, for me. Everyone is crying in the movie, they are letting their loved ones go. But you, you let me go without any tears in your eyes. Instead, you feel happy. That hurts. Really really hurt.






" .. You jump, I jump ". This words are very sweet :') I feel sad when Rose jump back into the ship, because she can't bare the feelings of facing the truth that she's letting Jack go. Right after she jumped back into the ship, I can feel LOVE. The love that I've been missing for this past 4weeks. Well actually, its been almost 2 months that I haven't feel the love from him. How I missed having him in my life. How I missed. I'm crying. Haha. Bloody hell. I hate tears. Shit. Haha.






Boy, what did I do that makes you changed so drastically? What did I do that make you choose her instead of me? Where did I went wrong? Where? Tell me, I feel weak. I miss you, I swear I do. Ten man standing in front of me, waiting for me to choose one. None of them that really can own my heart, like you did, boy. They can't replaced you, ever. Do you still remember in the movie, there's an old woman and old guy, hugging in bed, waiting to die together? That part really touched me. Their love is very strong for each other. Like we both, a year ago. But the love is fading away. One thing for sure, its not on my side, its on your side. Your love for me is fading away. .






I miss you so much. I miss everything about you. .

. . . And again, from the deepest part in my heart, I love you.

- Nobody
People who is reading this entry, appreciate your loved ones. Don't be too sure that they won't leave you. Hold them tight, because they might be running away and leave you all alone, facing the cruelty of this world.






... Like what he did to me.

*Even though if one day, I already move one, but there's one thing for sure, you're the best thing that I ever had.

; Woman's heart is like the deepest part in ocean that is fulls with secrets.
- Even so you see me smiling and laughing, that don't mean that I'm actually really happy.